This November I will decided to once again participate in National Podcast Post Month — One podcast posted each day in November. I did it in 2008 and enjoyed it. However, for 2009 I thought I would add a theme or a goal other than just posting a cast each day.
This season I’ve been watching The Biggest Loser as well as having spent the last few months starting to slowly integrate better eating and exercise choices — and drifting every few days. I continue to fluctuate up and down in the same 5 pound range for the past two months. Why? Because I haven’t buckled down and DONE IT. I haven’t kicked and screamed and fought through the first and toughest mental barriers.
So, putting it out for all to see, I will be attempting to lose 30 pounds in 30 days as well as podcasting each of those days. Please feel free to leave your comments, encouragement, doubts, thoughts, suggestions or whatever else below.
Posted by bribri on November 22, 2009 at 11:56 AM
Hey, losing weight is one of the hardest things you will ever do in your life. I lost over 100 pounds over the course of maybe a year and a half or so, and there’s a few things I’ve noticed. First of all, it is HARD AS HELL to not bounce back into bad habits, etc. I got really trim, and then I started eating as if I was always a super-thin, so I wasn’t watching what I ate anymore because I thought.. “oh, I’m thin! Yaa.. now I can eat cake.” Hmm.. bad me! So I lost all that weight, but started fluctuating, gaining 10-20 pounds over the course of a few months, taking it off again, etc etc.. it kinda is like a roller coaster ride. I’ve been on this ride for many years now, and sometimes it levels off and stays the same, some times its up, down, all around.
Another thing I’ve learned is that I NEVER CAN STOP THINKING LIKE A FAT GUY. No matter what weight I have been at, I’ve never been able to build up a really positive self-image… I felt like it was so trashed by my experiences as a fat gay, I have a very hard time feeling comfortable in my own skin… like, when I’m getting up from a chair, I’m obsessed with pulling my shirt down, making sure no one can see my lil’ muffin-top. Or when I’m dating somebody, it’s impossible for me to sit around them without thinking about how I’m sitting, if the way I’m sitting makes my belly stick out, ect… ITS TRULY CRAZY.
Another thing… once I lost all my weight, and was a lil’ trim guy I turned into a WHORE. I just ate up all the attention I got (even though I was still very uncomfortable with how I looked, convinced that I had to turn the lights off to have sex, etc), and that included attention from people who are BAD PEOPLE. You know, the predatory type that sniff out the insecure young gays… I wasn’t gorgeous, but I wasn’t fat anymore so when anyone showed interest I was ALL FOR IT!
So anyways, I guess I’m not making it sound so great, but the moral of the story is.. Now I’m relatively secure in myself, I’ve gotten better about my self-image, etc, and I am so happy I lost the weight, but it came with some really hard life lessons that were TOTALLY WORTH IT.
SO DO IT! You will look back on it someday in the future and be really glad you did.
I’m not gonna give you any tips because I’m positive that you’ve heard all of it before. Ok, well, maybe just this one.. DO WHAT WORKS FOR YOU.